Nimbus

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On October 29th, 2021, I wrote a poem entitled: "Do you watch for the sun or wait for the rain?" As a poet, if I have earned that title yet, I am always seeking improvement and perfection. I encourage you to go and read that in the "previously written" tab and see how I've done on my goal to improve! So here you go, my latest work:

"Nimbus"

Bluish tint and cloudless art

Filled the upper canvas,

Yet peaceful mind and tranquil heart

Seemed, to me, outlandish!

For soon there'd come a dismal scene,

The shading of a storm,

To replace the atmospheric clean,

And angry clouds to form.

So I worried some, and worried more,

Forgetting beauty's song,

In fear of something not-yet there,

For there "should be" something wrong!

For do I wonder all too much

While they're in awe and I'm in pain?

Or do I somehow justify

My sit and wait for rain?

And soon it came, I knew it would,

The somber Nimbus, soaring;

I realized then, and then too late,

Something deep inside me roaring.

For what I didn't choose to see,

The cleansing sky celestial,

Was come and gone without my glee

As I brooded on potential.

But they who chose to present-live,

And they who chose to cherish,

Even with the gloomy chance,

Didn't seem to perish.

For tempests come and rains will fall,

And stomachs will take pit,

But present heart and moment mind

Make worry never worth it.

-Cale Kenneth Montoya (11/03/23)

This may be one of my favorite poems that I have ever constructed. It came to me in perfect timing. You know how sometimes you teach somebody something and then realize it's really meant for you? Exhibit A.

The core themes of this particular piece, like you have probably come to notice now, lie within the final insert. It states:

"For tempests come and rains will fall,

And stomachs will take pit,

But present heart and moment mind

Make worry never worth it."

Often, as mortal beings, we tend to worry about things so much that we lose sight of what is in front of us in the present moment. To me, that is silly, yet I also do it all the time! If we spend all our days expecting a "nimbus cloud" it will come, but our tunnel-vision would have tuned out all the "non-nimbus cloud" moments and we will have lost joy and "tranquility." (as the text states)

I believe that this concept of worry and dismal expectation is inspired by the Adversary. His cunning plan is for us to worry when it "isn't worth it" and then feel sorrow when the worry comes to pass. My philosophy? Live in the moment and take it in while you have it. Even if what you worry about could evidently come to pass, cherish the time you have before it comes, and when it comes, face it head on—and if you do, if you "chose to present-live," and join those "who chose to cherish, Even with the gloomy chance," You won't succumb to "perish."

In addition, I told a friend recently: "Worry isn't valid without evidence." And even if there is evidence, it doesn't make it factual. Worrying about something that may not ever come to pass is like watering a fake plant, what's the point?

Anyways, there's my two cents you probably didn't ask for...

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-Cale Montoya